Hey I'm Michael 20 years old from Australia.
I'm a gamer (but really don't play enough games. I like platformers, rpgs, some rts and puzzel games. I also love The Big Bang Theory.
I'm a ice hockey fan even though I live in Australia. I follow my local league normally but also sometimes follow the NHL but I really go through stages of liking it and disliking it.
I have been diagnosed with Depression and anxiety in the past year and on top of that have aspergers. I'm not looking for pity but the reason for this tumblr is to express myself and hopefully overcome some of my "issues/problems"
Please feel free to ask me anything. I'm more than happy to chat :)
So my Granddad is in hospital at the moment and is looking so bad. I’ve never seen him this bad it’s so scary. I don’t think he’ll get better. He’s 89 and has bone cancer and can barely walk around.
He’s normally so chirpy and telling jokes but now he’s so down he’s talking about how old he is and he’s always sleepy. He didn’t even know if it was morning or afternoon.
I’m sorry worried about him. He looks so sad. I don’t want him to be sad he’s a role model to me unlike my father he’d always listen and make me laugh.
I don’t want to lose him but I think I already have. They can’t cure cancer and then can’t operate on a frail 89 year old.
I think if he had the choice he’d asked to be put down like they do with animals. He’s lived a great long life and he doesn’t deserve an end like this.
I didn’t realize how bad he was until today. He’s always just gotten out of hospital fine and still chugged on like the happy old chap he is but now. I don’t know.
My biggest fear is he doesn’t get better but doesn’t die. He lives for another 6 months in pain and stresses out everyone.
My grandma is stressed enough about it as it is and my Mum and I are both so stressed as well with other stuff.
I love him so much but I have to accept the fact he’s mentally never going to be the same and could be days away from dying. My grandma was worried he’d have died wednesday night.
I love you Granddad <3
Anyone that has been following me for a while may have noticed I stopped posting stuff for the past 3-4 months. I don’t know why I stopped really.
Anyway a lot has changed since then. I broke up with my girlfriend and we became friends then just recently she started hanging and getting interested in a guy that use to bully me a lot and also hurt her. So afew some more issues she deleted me off a couple of social networks so I just deleted her from the rest and am starting fresh.
Thus why I deleted EVERYTHING on my tumblr.
I’m starting fresh and am going to start writing or posting my feelings and random thoughts more often here as a way to “vent”
I hope my current followers don’t get to upset with the change.
Hope you all stay :)
P.S. I’m not trying to say hate my ex or anything or try to convince you she was wrong i was right or anything like that.